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True love creaks in wood and swaying hemp,
swirls as an azure cloud,
smells like metals and powder,
tingles with tendrils of lightning,
and tastes like the crimson wine of the night.

This ain't no "edgy persona", or intended to be "dark".
Like a child guards a teddy bear, I guard this in my heart.
Smoke and mirrors - and reminders not to follow
your true desires? Is that all you've got?
The body shrugs and the mind moves on
to chase the dreams that so long have been denied.
Disclaimer
'cuz haters gonna hate ;)
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The Armorer

Drops of love, their coppery glint
beckoning to a thirsty, knowing soul -
and tools of love, steel and wood for sweethearts,
plastic for workers - my cupboard has them all.
The vault-keeper I am, with a mild smile,
witness to sparks lit by my treasure's guile
in your eyes, stranger - I hope you use them well,
whether it's love or revenge you seek to quell.

Hiraeth

A reassuring presence in my brain -
the scent of childhood lost and found again
in the essence, distilled and contained,
the shadow of blessed days bygone, when
there was yet no cold truth, heartbreak to cloud
the bright sky, and I've proclaimed aloud:
"the future's mine!"...Oh, those foolish dreams,
they are now a lifetime away, it seems -
yet still here, glistening in Slavs' water,
never to fade, never to grow older.

Friends

You are my coping mechanism - your sweet
untruths and the shared appreciation
for beauty that, among the trash, we meet.
Despite all, we stayed in constellation -
perhaps part of me still wants to believe
that someone even for the lowest can grieve.
1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?
Yes. And I'm mostly terrified of that doubt.

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?
Zero.

3. The person you would never want to meet?
Justin Bieber?

4. What is your favorite word?
Asphyxiation. :P

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?
A yew. Even though that's more a bush than a tree, but...yeah.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?
I...didn't look in the mirror today yet...

7. What shirt are you wearing?
A random tan one.

8. What do you label yourself as?
I don't. XD Extreme 

9. Bright room or dark room?
Dark. With a little lamp for reading.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Eating dinner.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?
Ugh, dunno. I'd rather be ageless.

12. Who told you they loved you last?
:iconskaramine: :meow:

13. Your worst enemy?
My own insecurities.

14. What is your current desktop picture?
A cat with a gun.

15. Do you like someone?
That way? Not currently.

16. The last song you listened to?
Painbastard - Klare Worte

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
My mother.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
You want the entire list? :lmao:

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?
Oh holy shit. :D My ex. And... all sorts of degrading shit. Finally she'd have to drown herself.

20. What is your best physical attribute?
Do I have good physical attributes? :shrug: or :dunno: 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
I'd look like Patrick Swayze and I'd fuck women. Yeah. Boobs 

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?
Well, if I have, it's so secret that even I don't know about it...

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?
Dementia....is that unique enough?

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.
Rye bread, smoked ham, maple syrup. Simple, yet delicious. :)

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?
Electricity, vodka, food. In that order.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?
North Riverside, IL. (You know why. I Love You Emote  )

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?
SOUTHERN COMFORT!!!! :love: :excited: I mean c'mon, was that EVER a question?

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Sexual assault and hurting the environment will result in public execution. :meow:

29. What is your favorite expletive?
Fuck. Fuckity fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?
Easy. My PC. I make a living with it, duh.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
That messed up relationship. Yes, even the good parts. H-Bomb Hiccup 

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!
Look at my icon. That might give you a clue where I'd end up. Wink/Razz 
On another note... a time-traveling heathen? How do you know that about me?

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
I'm tempted to say one of my famous favorites, like Aileen Wuornos or Dorothy Parker, but I didn't actually know them personally, and Dorothy probably likes it over there... So... I guess my dead friend Allie from FL who had an unintended methadone OD in 2009.

34. What was your last dream about?
Uh...it was some muddled up thing about fighting giant earthworms...

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?
People say I'm a good writer/translator, but that's about it... :shrug: or :dunno: 

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?
Yup.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?
Nope. I have built a rudimentary igloo, though.

38. What is the color of your socks?
Gray.

39. What type of music do you like?
I'm a musical omnivore, but my taste tends to gravitate towards the dark.

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
Sunsets, because if I'm up early enough to see the sun rise, that's a Bad Thing (TM).

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?
Chocolate.

42. What football team do you support?
I don't watch sports.

43. Do you have any scars?
Yeeees. A lot :)

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?
Already graduated... And I still have no idea.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
Just one? Hm... I'd like to have The Hulk's powers.

46. Are you reliable?
I try to be.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?
Well... I hope I don't have that long of a future...

48. Do you hold grudges?
Yeah. But I usually forget about why I hold them.

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?
A snakecat. Venomous, clawed, vicious, and overwhelmingly cute.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?
I think all my conversations are unusual... :lol:

51. Are you a good liar?
Nah. I suck at lying. Probably because having to lie kinda makes my skin crawl.

52. How long could you go without talking?
Ugh... If that includes writing, less than an hour. If not... dunno, until the next time I drink. Alcohol loosens my tongue a lot.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?
The metre-long hair I had in high school. Jeez.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?
Nope.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?
Probably not. Even trying to get rid of mine, because Self-conscious Foreigner.

56. What do you like on your toast?
That Swedish mushroom sauce thing.

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?
I think a sword and a hatchet.

58. What would be you dream car?
A DeLorean - except in black and with a Minigun mounted on top.

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.
Not really. But my best thoughts happen there, lol.

60. Do you believe in aliens?
Well, this universe is awfully big to host just one intelligent species. But in the sense of aliens on Earth... nah. Prove it.

61. Do you often read your horoscope?
Nope.

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?
X. Because Y not? :P

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?
Dinosaurs...'cuz they are real.

64. What do you think about babies?
:eekla: Get those away from me!
  • Mood: I Have To Pee
  • Listening to: Brighter Death Now - Payday
  • Reading: City of Bones (Cassandra Clare)
  • Eating: coldcuts
  • Drinking: whenever the next money gets here
Most people die when they cease to live.
But what about those who never lived?
If I went out and started living, I'd end up in a straightjacket or a prison cell.
Being dead is just self-defense. So is that bottle under my bed.
And so is my writing. You call it talent. I call it a surrogate.

Don't you wish you could just tear your heart out and eat it,
fiber by contractile fiber,
savoring the taste of the maddening emotions,
maybe even finally understanding them?
Maybe deciphering the secret of what makes you unique...
Everyone claims to be unique, but the ones who really are know -
it's not all that glamorous as it's cracked up to be.
Constant pain is no fun.
Nor is constantly questioning and second-guessing people who'd give everything for you.
Because they might be lying. After all, you've been lied to a lot.
But I guess that's expected when your very core contradicts everyone's tacit assumption of humanity.

Fuck humanity. Fuck their high-and-mighty attitude towards us. Their entire history is that of colonization -
India, Africa, America, you name it. But there was an earlier colonization. That of Earth.
A colonization that only our kind remembers, and even that only faintly, in dreams and half-cooked intuition.
They subdued us, burned us, tucked us into secluded places of punishment and alteration,
seeking a "cure" for our existence. As if there was anything sick about it.
Well, there is at least nothing sicker in us than in their constant thirst for power, for slaves, for glittery things that are utterly useless.

I don't hate them. Not individually, anyway. But I despise them.
Have you ever winced upon seeing litter in the forest? Plastic, nylon, bright and immutable... Like a scar.
That's what they are. That's what they do. Except they are litter we ain't supposed to clean.
Because we have their blood in us. Pureblood Others no longer exist.
But we - the crossbreeds - we do.
If they would've just killed the Others, that would have been forgivable.
After all, they had a need for a place to live, and both breeds had recognized Natural Law.
Humans even used the Law as a justification when they turned against themselves.
Their word for it was Lebensraum.
Our word for it...is forgotten.
But physical and cultural genocide was just the beginning.

Your guilt for being different... I suppose that's the human blood in you.
I wish I could rationalize it the same way you do. But I know too much. I've seen too much.
It's not about "innocents". It's about being free.
The taste we will never taste... but will forever long for.
The world has been remolded to their whim, the rules are theirs, the land is theirs, even our words and thoughts are theirs.
Only the buried, denied, redirected, repressed, only in artistic symbols expressed want remains of the once proud breed of the Others.
But it remains.... for all intents and purposes, forever.
Corroded Breed
www.youtube.com/watch?v=UgWaQukvG4M

The one this is meant for will get it.
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I won't say that spanking is good, or it's bad, or any sort of moral judgment about it. I've never had a child and probably never will. I'm just saying a few words about how it works, what it actually does.

First off, spanking is not about pain. Kids can withstand and ignore enormous amounts of pain, a lot more than adults, in fact. Caught up in the thrill of play, a broken finger or dislocated shoulder can go unnoticed until the thrill is gone. I personally have kept a toothache secret for nearly a year. And in spanking/corporal punishment, physical pain is usually pretty mild. But no matter how mild or harsh it is, the point is not that.

What's the point, then? Well - imagine this. You live your life, mind your business, oblivious of most things - but time to time, a giant, a person twice your size or bigger, comes along, picks you up, tells you what you're doing is wrong, and lands a few smacks on your ass. You can do absolutely nothing to avoid him or her grabbing you. They are much more powerful than you are. Compared to them, you are puny, weak, helpless. And they hate it when you enjoy something. Every time you do something fun, they appear to punish you and on top of that, they take away your access to that thing or activity. They might even make you do other, meaningless things, or even give you a task that hurts (for example, handling a vacuum cleaner requires you to bend down, which causes you to vomit after a longer while). But nevermind the details. The point is that their superior size and strength makes it literally impossible to resist them. And so you learn that you are alone, little, and vulnerable.

Learning limitations is part of the lesson. The other part comes later, when you realize that growing up will not make you as powerful as you think. When it becomes clear that as an adult, you are still helpless - because the other adults are more numerous, and a special group of them is armed and trained to prevent you from doing enjoyable things. Gradually, the fear you felt towards the giant of your childhood is transferred to them. This conditioning, this learned fear, prevents you from becoming a source of dissent - a "criminal", as they call it. Ironically, if no one was afraid of the police, they wouldn't be able to do their job. They wouldn't be able to replace the fearsome giant's function because, armed and trained as they are, they are still human. Still mortal. If everyone, or at least the majority, realized that we are in fact not alone, that there are more people like us, and there is definitely more of us than them, the whole system would collapse. But that would require trust. That would require being certain that the other person will not "snitch" or "chicken out", or even switch sides, to join the authority and thus enjoy the power that comes with it.

Why are enjoyable things forbidden? That's a complex question in and of itself, and it'd take a whole book to completely answer it. But the fact is that they are forbidden, and thus there is no real reconciliation between the individual and authority. Only compromises. Alcohol and drugs, fiction, video games, keeping things secret to "get away with" them, masturbation and "legitimate" sex, art, and so on. Ways to compensate the lack of joy in life. Ways to control ourselves - internalizing the control that parental discipline has exercised when we were children.
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Reading: Soul of the Sword (Robert L O'Connell)
  • Eating: spaghetti carbonara
  • Drinking: whenever the next money gets here
1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?
Yes. And I'm mostly terrified of that doubt.

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?
Zero.

3. The person you would never want to meet?
Justin Bieber?

4. What is your favorite word?
Asphyxiation. :P

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?
A yew. Even though that's more a bush than a tree, but...yeah.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?
I...didn't look in the mirror today yet...

7. What shirt are you wearing?
A random tan one.

8. What do you label yourself as?
I don't. XD Extreme 

9. Bright room or dark room?
Dark. With a little lamp for reading.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Eating dinner.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?
Ugh, dunno. I'd rather be ageless.

12. Who told you they loved you last?
:iconskaramine: :meow:

13. Your worst enemy?
My own insecurities.

14. What is your current desktop picture?
A cat with a gun.

15. Do you like someone?
That way? Not currently.

16. The last song you listened to?
Painbastard - Klare Worte

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
My mother.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
You want the entire list? :lmao:

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?
Oh holy shit. :D My ex. And... all sorts of degrading shit. Finally she'd have to drown herself.

20. What is your best physical attribute?
Do I have good physical attributes? :shrug: or :dunno: 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
I'd look like Patrick Swayze and I'd fuck women. Yeah. Boobs 

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?
Well, if I have, it's so secret that even I don't know about it...

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?
Dementia....is that unique enough?

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.
Rye bread, smoked ham, maple syrup. Simple, yet delicious. :)

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?
Electricity, vodka, food. In that order.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?
North Riverside, IL. (You know why. I Love You Emote  )

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?
SOUTHERN COMFORT!!!! :love: :excited: I mean c'mon, was that EVER a question?

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Sexual assault and hurting the environment will result in public execution. :meow:

29. What is your favorite expletive?
Fuck. Fuckity fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?
Easy. My PC. I make a living with it, duh.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
That messed up relationship. Yes, even the good parts. H-Bomb Hiccup 

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!
Look at my icon. That might give you a clue where I'd end up. Wink/Razz 
On another note... a time-traveling heathen? How do you know that about me?

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
I'm tempted to say one of my famous favorites, like Aileen Wuornos or Dorothy Parker, but I didn't actually know them personally, and Dorothy probably likes it over there... So... I guess my dead friend Allie from FL who had an unintended methadone OD in 2009.

34. What was your last dream about?
Uh...it was some muddled up thing about fighting giant earthworms...

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?
People say I'm a good writer/translator, but that's about it... :shrug: or :dunno: 

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?
Yup.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?
Nope. I have built a rudimentary igloo, though.

38. What is the color of your socks?
Gray.

39. What type of music do you like?
I'm a musical omnivore, but my taste tends to gravitate towards the dark.

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
Sunsets, because if I'm up early enough to see the sun rise, that's a Bad Thing (TM).

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?
Chocolate.

42. What football team do you support?
I don't watch sports.

43. Do you have any scars?
Yeeees. A lot :)

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?
Already graduated... And I still have no idea.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
Just one? Hm... I'd like to have The Hulk's powers.

46. Are you reliable?
I try to be.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?
Well... I hope I don't have that long of a future...

48. Do you hold grudges?
Yeah. But I usually forget about why I hold them.

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?
A snakecat. Venomous, clawed, vicious, and overwhelmingly cute.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?
I think all my conversations are unusual... :lol:

51. Are you a good liar?
Nah. I suck at lying. Probably because having to lie kinda makes my skin crawl.

52. How long could you go without talking?
Ugh... If that includes writing, less than an hour. If not... dunno, until the next time I drink. Alcohol loosens my tongue a lot.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?
The metre-long hair I had in high school. Jeez.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?
Nope.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?
Probably not. Even trying to get rid of mine, because Self-conscious Foreigner.

56. What do you like on your toast?
That Swedish mushroom sauce thing.

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?
I think a sword and a hatchet.

58. What would be you dream car?
A DeLorean - except in black and with a Minigun mounted on top.

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.
Not really. But my best thoughts happen there, lol.

60. Do you believe in aliens?
Well, this universe is awfully big to host just one intelligent species. But in the sense of aliens on Earth... nah. Prove it.

61. Do you often read your horoscope?
Nope.

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?
X. Because Y not? :P

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?
Dinosaurs...'cuz they are real.

64. What do you think about babies?
:eekla: Get those away from me!
  • Mood: I Have To Pee
  • Listening to: Brighter Death Now - Payday
  • Reading: City of Bones (Cassandra Clare)
  • Eating: coldcuts
  • Drinking: whenever the next money gets here

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Not exactly a hobbyist, but therapeutic writing wasn't an option. Self-doubting white girl with a tendency to obsess over stuff, which I take out on... formerly paper, nowadays my DA page.
As long as you don't attempt to "cheer me up" or get all religious on me, we'll get along well. Tell me what's your poison and I... won't exactly tell who you are, but pour you a round and tell a good story, 'kay?


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And you enjoy leaving nonsensical comments for people you don't even know? What the fuck are you talking about?

In fact, I don't enjoy anybody's suffering. That's why I support suicide.
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